When You Feel Like You Can't

There she is … my little, ceramic Scottie dog, Sassy, affectionately named after a beloved Scottie we had years ago. But she’s sitting on a ledge in the nativity and with a great view. I just noticed her today … one of my littles obviously relocated her to be with Jesus.

My guess is my 2-year old grandbaby, Lonnie girl, put her there. She’s so fascinated with the baby Jesus. I can’t tell you how many times he has been rocked to sleep. In fact, he was accidentally dropped once and I had to superglue his toes back to his feet.

I’ve been seeking God almost desperately these last couple of months for direction. I’m wrestling with a serious health issue that requires surgery. I’m meeting with the surgeon on Monday for scheduling. I know what I’m called to do but honestly – I’ve not had what it took physically or emotionally to show up here for some time.

My October was full of deadlines and back to back weekend speaking events – I was plum worn out in every way. But I realized from feeling poorly and the tiredness that I’ve been putting so much pressure on the calling, that I allowed the enemy to make me feel like I can’t do this ministry thing. I would have a good day and then two bad days that wiped me out, putting me in bed … it’s like riding a roller coaster.

I know my healing is coming in the name of Jesus. But I feel like I’ve let so many of you down as well as the Lord.

But this little Scottie placed in the nativity gave me a new perspective. It made me laugh at first but then I realized, the weight of writing, teaching, speaking, and sharing the gospel isn’t on me. It’s all on HIM … I just have to lead people to the nativity to get a view of Jesus – and let God do the rest.

That may sound simplistically silly to you, but God reminded me again for like the tenth time – I can’t but He can … in all things! The pressure is off in the name of Jesus!

So here’s to 2022 … with great expectations of God giving people a view of Jesus that resonates deep in their souls.

Don’t let the enemy use anything against you!

Happy New Year! May you see Jesus all around you in unexpected ways!

I love you all!