“If you had responded to my rebuke, I would have poured out my heart to you and made my thoughts known to you.”  Proverbs 1:23

I missed HIM…..I missed something HE wanted to show me but I pressed on in my own will.  How many times have I missed HIM?  It makes me literally heart sick that HE would have poured out HIS heart to me…..let me in on HIS thoughts….if only…I would have listened….obeyed…..repented.

I hit the snooze button for the….first…..second…..third…..and even fourth time….I take short cuts….throw the hair up in a pony tail……hurry down stairs……slap the pop tart in the toaster……pour the milk……grab my Bible and rush out the door.  “I can do my quite time at work,”……I tell myself…..but when I get to work…….a client unexpectedly pops in…..the phone is busy…..an urgent task finds a landing spot on my desk ….. for me to complete…..and I don’t do my quite time.

Recently I fought a bout of insomnia due to a health issue.  It lasted about two weeks and I struggled with my normal morning routine of seeking GOD first.  Let me tell you, my day just isn’t the same when I don’t start with JESUS.  But more important…..When I miss our time I am not giving HIM the time to change me. I am not opening HIS love letter and allowing HIM to speak conviction to my heart.  I have not been still for HIM to pour out HIS heart to me…..I have missed knowing HIS thoughts.

Reading this verse last night…..Proverbs 1:23 jumped off the page at me and immediately gave me that feeling of being punched in my stomach.

What have I missed???????

 I will never know what HE had to tell me those mornings.

I delayed getting my heart right….in line with his….confessing those little sins that are so easy to delay confession for.  You know……those thoughts we shouldn’t think…..those feelings that are liars….those half truths we rationalize some way……those sins that are not blatant in your face sinful.

What have I missed???????

What healing balm would HE had soothed my weary soul with?  What insight or vision opportunity for HIS Kingdom have I missed?  What sister or brother would HE had led me to lift up?  What burdens would HE had relieved me of?   What truth would HE had imparted to my feeble mind?

What have I missed??????

What have you missed??????

Every quiet time missed with GOD can never…… ever…… ever…….. be retrieved.  

Oh GOD…..I don’t want to miss anything you have to tell me…..ever.  Help me to heed your warnings….. to be still in your presence…..confess….repent……obey……listen.  I ache for you to pour out your heart to me….to know your thoughts.

I don’t ever want to miss you again LORD.