Time is a like a roll of toilet paper….the closer it gets to the end….the faster it goes.
Time waits for no one yet affords us many pleasures.
Time awards us wisdom yet threatens our youth and vitality.
Time comes quickly and cruelly leaves us longing for more.
Time measures our days, the special occasions, the new experiences, the tearful goodbyes and the joys of new life.
Time….a friend and a foe.
I’ve been thinking a lot about time lately. I’m turning 50 this weekend and totally amazed I’m going to be a half a century old….considered an antique….now eligible for an AARP card.
I used to think people in their fifties were old….the jokes on me now right?
As I have been embracing my slow swan dive into pre-senior citizen status, I’m actually kind of excited.
I am determined to make the next 50 years the best of my life.
In about 6 weeks I will finally have an empty nest. My last little birdie…or buzzard is probably more appropriate…is jumping out of the Porter nest.
My husband is especially excited he won’t have to hide his Debbie cakes and ice cream and he’s counting the days until he won’t have to share the family room TV.
For some silly reason he thinks we will run through the house naked if we desire.
Not this old girl.
I’m not afraid of getting older….but I am afraid of getting old.
You see….there is a difference…and a lot of it has to do with how we think about aging.
Getting OLDER means I’m still evolving to become what GOD desires….I’m still learning….still skipping hand in hand with the passions HE’S burned into my heart.
Getting OLD signifies becoming fixed…brittle…resolved to what is happening with the body…the mind and habits.
Getting OLDER means I am not afraid to keep trying, learning new things…..dreaming new dreams.
Getting OLD means to give up the dreams.
Getting OLDER is the path GOD has set for me…and you.
Getting OLD means stopping on the path…….giving up…..giving in.
I will not give in to the lie Satan wants us all to buy….you know the lie with fear attached to it…..getting older means life is getting closer to being over?
The truth is…..GOD has a charted path and plan to walk us right into eternity.
It is our job and responsibility to seek and follow HIS path every single day until we take our last breath.
By following HIS customized path for our lives…..we won’t get bored…..tired…..or fearful.
Following HIS path and plan will renew us….give us endurance….give us joy.
I can honestly say I am more excited about my future than I have ever been.
I’m carrying the lessons of the past in my back pocket and charting for a new territory called senior citizenville….the place of discounts galore…..and I will exploit them all.
I’ll be the newest golden girl on the block with the hottest senior citizen hubby already in residence…..he’s been there a while and has been patiently waiting for me to join him.
Since he is 16 years my senior….he was excited when I turned 30….I think he’s extremely satisfied with my ever approaching 50th mile marker.
In the past I dreaded this birthday but GOD has done amazing things in my heart these last few years.
HE’S breathed new life into the now empty space of motherhood.
HE has been pursuing this stubborn heart my entire life….and I finally got smart enough to realize it.
I know my future is good…..because GOD’S got me in the palm of his hand.
I’m so thankful for where I am at now.
I am grateful for the lessons of the past….the heartaches of yesterday…the regrets surrendered to peace…..for all these experiences are now wrapped in wisdom.
I am grateful HE has given me 50 years….some hard…some easy….but all full of life and hope.
When you have JESUS….you can’t help but think….. life…and hope.
So happy 50th birthday to me…..
A golden girl in training.
I’m not getting old…thanks to the good LORD….I’m just getting a little older.
“Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.” 2 Corinthians 4:16
